4 Years!!

It has taken me 4 years to be okay showing other people this picture and I speculated back and forth for like a day whether I should post it. But looks like I am. It is time to embrace my past baldness. Actually I only lost about 95% of it. Anyways, today marks my fourth anniversary of officially being declared in remission from Lymphoma. One of the greatest and happiest days of my life. My sister had this huge cookie made ( that I later threw up even though it was so good) and we shared with all my nurses and my parents it was so great. I have this picture hanging up in my room as a constant reminder of my blessings. I can't help but look at this picture and wonder who this girl is. Sometimes I don't even recognize her and I wonder how in the world I ever did it. All the treatments, the shots, taking 12 pills a day, the constant testing, the nautious feeling always in my stomach, the aches and pains, the doctors appointments. But then I remember my Heavenly Father and my Savior and their constant strength, guidance and peaceful assurance from the spirit that everything was going to be just fine. I just had to grit my teeth, force a smile, and pray like I have never prayed before but 4 years later, my hair is back, I am about to graduate from college, I have complete physical strength and the greatest life in the world. If I THINK I am having a rough day, I just picture myself it this chemo chair and everything doesn't seem so bad anymore. There is not a day that goes by that I don't thank my Heavenly Father for his mercy and power and blessings. I am so grateful for the Atonement of our Savior that heals us from not only our transgressions, sins and daily mistakes but from our illnesses and infirmities. Without it, I wouldn't be here today!

You Have Got To Be Kidding Me!!

Well you might just have to ignore my post a couple of weeks ago about my roommate Haley. She tore her ACL and MCL in her right knee at a game Friday night in Portland. When I got Melinda's text, my heart dropped and I felt sick to my stomach. I just kept thinking, "you have got to be freaking kidding me!" This is the 3rd time! And I told Melinda that I didn't even know what to say to Haley because I have said everything the first 2 times. I started having flashbacks of those stupid crutches, icing, Haley hobbling around, rubbing her knee at night, movie nights with Melinda while Haley ices her knee and is on pain killers, seeing her not dressed out on the bench, the after math of surgery and on and on. But I am proud of Haley for her determination and faith. I have never met anyone that loves something as much as she does but sometimes the Lord takes away what we love to teach us much greater lessons about ourselves, life and more importantly, Him. It breaks my heart to know that I will never see her finish out a season, take a conference championship, take mountain west player of the year (which is what would have happened) but our thoughts are not the Lord's. Our ways are most certainly not His and even though it stinks so bad, it ALWAYS works out for our best. And basketball is what got Haley here to BYU and this is where she is suppose to be. It's amazing how life never turns out the way you expect it to turn out. It never turns out the way you play it out in your head but thank goodness! I know we will look back on our lives in the next, and be so grateful. We will be so grateful that there is a God in Heaven who is in complete control and knows exactly what He is doing!

For Kelli

Kelli I am buying you these for Christmas. I know you

will make the most use out of them.

Found It!

I found my wedding dress with a few alterations! Haha.

Can you even imagine?

I think my mom would cry and I would

feel like I was wearing my

roommate's poodle.

Does it come in red?

Monday Goodness

It is dreary, cold and raining here in Provo
and I have a horrible headache. I am ready to
go home and take a 20 minute power
nap and get ready for a long
night in the library but...

I'm still smiling.

Well actually I just really liked this picture...:)

I like cereal.

Third Time's the Charm

My roommate Haley is on the women's basketball team and her first year here (2 years ago) she tore her ACL and it was a very sad and disappointing time for her. It was hard to see her miss out on the thing she loves the most, basketball. But as her roommate, I did my best to help her out when needed and just be supportive. So last year came and she was ready to go and tore it again about a month before the season was to start. I cried. It was so sad to see all her effort and hard work and time recupperating, go down the drain. But she endured well and remained postive for her future basketball career and she is finally back in action. We went to her exhibition games both Wednesday and Saturday nights and she is their starting point guard and captain and doing so good. She is so fun to watch and makes it look like a bunch of guys out there. So go Haley and we are all so proud of you. I just wish Melinda was still playing. She is so amazing and fun to watch too but at least she can sit by me at the games now.

Vintage Baby Doll Coat

All I need to do is find it on sale for less then $30. I am still dreaming...